Get unlimited access to Esquire's coverage of all 17,689,355 hours of content available to stream on the internet, with Esquire Select. It's the moment I tell you what surely, somewhere in your heart of hearts you already know: that Otis Milburn is the villain of Sex Education. Most times, I just get a knot in my stomach, twisted like a triple Windsor on the first day of prep school.
But there are these pockets behind my eyes, which well and well despite knowing, on some level, that this isn't something to cry about. It's a hearty Joker laugh, the corners of my lips inching toward my ears, my cackles loud enough to crack the thickest drywall.
Sometimes, when I think about it, I laugh.